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Clarity and Chaos

Two opposing forces?  I don’t think so. Divine truth.  Whatever runs through my head, the tears that fall, or the mountain of emotion that invades my spirit and my heart all leads to Truth. My thoughts today are clearer.  Clarity in … Continue reading

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Turning the Corner, When Not to Give Up

You know a lot of my posts have been rather dark.  Not really inspirational, but coming from a place of pain.  As I look across the Winter Sky, these stars looks different than they were 15 years ago.  Wow, has … Continue reading

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Sadness and Disappointment in the Universe

Sometimes, just sometimes, we wake up and say today will be better.  God will hear my prayers today and everything will be just fine.  Then we find out our dreams and hopes have been crushed and the days just kind … Continue reading

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Lust, Love and Darkness

The Darkness.   Nothing can express it more than my last post “The Dagger”.  Someone as fucked up as I am had two Valentines this year.  Two men that mean more to me than life itself.  One is my ex … Continue reading

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The Dagger

Plunging in my heart.   I am here again.  Loving so hard and so fast that I want to die. Bipolar.  Pills.  Do I go to my psychiatrist and tell him to give me something else?  Or do I fight … Continue reading

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Take Me….

Take me from this world.  From this Earth.  Whatever is out there.  Take me.  I don’t want to be of this Earth.  I am not meant for this world.  This world of utter chaos and sex, violence, sin and utter … Continue reading

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Dagger Through the Heart as I Drown

Down the rabbit hole I go.  Although its not wonderland I am going.  Its that dark place. That place I went to when I swallowed a whole bottle of pills.  I am at my worst.  Yet I am in love? … Continue reading

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