Why is this relevant now? Because I know that life sometimes throws you a bad hand. When is it my time? When do I get to be Sleeping Beauty? Possibly never. I often wonder who would want a woman with so much emotional baggage.
This bipolar is kicking my ass today. Where are my pills dammit? That’s right I didn’t take any last night because I decided to party instead. By party I mean, grab a friend, grab a bottle and veg out in front of her tv getting pretty hammered watching the Lego Movie (awesome when you’re buzzed by the way) all while eating Cheetos. Sounds like a typical Friday night. Although, since I’m a bum, my Friday was on a Wednesday. So sue me.
I am totally depressed today. Chatting it up with these online guys. Why I am still searching for a man to hang out with? I know I will never go out on a date with him. At least not for a while. The last two dates have both been disasters.
Does true love exist? Will true love’s kiss wake me up from this horrible nightmare I call a life?
Hmmm. I wonder.