It is crippling to the soul. It envelops you like a disease. Is it just depression? What happens when you can’t get up. When it consumes your whole mood and it reaches down into your underbelly and it takes you in with it. That’s what happened to me. This bipolar. What are you? Is it just winter?
Some people say its the winter blues and it is just January that is doing this. But 2013 in general has been so hard for me. It is a struggle to get out of bed. I lied to my boss this morning. He may fire me. I may lose my job. And you know what, I don’t even care. I don’t want to try. Oh bipolar, you are a demon. This imbalance is stifling.
Do you ever feel like you don’t even want to try? This sea of emotion. Like a rollercoaster. I can’t even get my bearings till like 1pm. It really takes almost 5 hours to wake up properly? This is not normal. It’s just plain fucked up.
We are the foresaken.
We are the bipolar.