So I am leading a double life. One uninhibited. Where I can be whoever I want to be. Am I alone out there? I feel alone. Like I am the only one engaging in this type of activity. I mean men do it all the time, but do women? I guess I should post this in a forum thread instead of a blog, but I am afraid of the responses. Afraid of the responses in cyber world. How Bizzaro is that? Yes, I am aware I said Bizzaro. Why do I do it? Because I haven’t had sex in a very long time. And I don’t want to. I have a boyfriend and we don’t have sex. He is not sexual, but maybe he is. What if he is leading a double life too? Being one of those guys flashing his weener on cam? Those guys are so gross. But yet I strangely engage them in the short two minutes I use to get off. Let’s face it girls, the men outnumber the women in that arena. We have many to pick and choose from. Usually there are chatrooms just filled with men looking for cyber sex and bots who ask them for money. I have a feeling that’s why they closed down yahoo. Because of the “bot” problem.
So where does that leave me? Feeling somewhat guilty I guess. All these men are random and I never see their faces and they never see my face. There is no romance just sex. I wonder where the romance went? Did I lose my ability to feel romance? Is it just get my jollies and get out? Right now it is….
Wonder what tomorrow will bring….